Just writing some thoughts...

Thoughts... So I don't know why, but I feel like I just need to write out my thoughts, and maybe the two of you that actually read this can have some advice or something. I hate that I think about getting work done more than playing with Cooper sometimes...I have to work 4 hours a day for Utah.com, plus I do some wedding videos. Sometimes I just can't wait for him to take a nap so I can keep working. It's like it's held over my head all day until those 4 hours are done! I wish I didn't feel that way because it makes me feel guilty. I want to enjoy all the time I have with Cooper. Which I enjoy a lot of it, but I am counting down till his nap so I can get those hours in.. How do I balance that a little better? I also HATE the fact that if we wanted to get pregnant again,,we CAN'T because it's too blasted expensive! We don't qualify for medicaid (which pays for everything), but we don't have enough to pay for private insurance. (I mean, we are only working part-time, and Austin is a full-time student too!). I think the only option we have is for me to work full-time again, and it is killing me!! The thing is, when I pray about it I never feel like that is the wrong decision, so maybe that's what I'm really supposed to do for this short period of life. We would have to find a baby sitter for Cooper for like 5 or 6 hours a day, and that makes me so sad, and another selfish thing...I had a goal to do 20 weddings this year, and if I work full-time I basically would have to give up my own business and just let it go. Why is it so hard to just trust in the lord sometimes? I guess I can't say I've gotten an answer that "yes, you have to work full-time", but when I do pray it definitely doesn't feel wrong, and it's the only option I can see in order to be able to afford a new baby. It's not like we are in a huge hurry either, but it would be nice not to have to wait until Austin can work full time after he graduates in a year too. Anyway, it's just been a hard couple days wondering what we should really do. I hate the fact that it's hard enough to work 4 hours a day, let alone 8. I LOVE my job, and I get paid well, and I get to work at home, which is an amazing blessing, I just don't want to go full-time :( I don't know though, maybe it will be a blessing in disguise,that I can learn many new things about filming and editing, and maybe even get a better savings to buy a house someday...Cooper will be fine, many moms have to work full-time and their children are just fine. It wouldn't be forever, just a short time...Ahh, just kinda bumbed, when I should feel so blessed that I even have that option. Guess I'm done. I just love my little Cooper man, and don't like feeling this way. Life is really good though, and I am very blessed.

Austin's B-day, and Thanksgiving.

 Here's some more stuff like Austin's B-day and Thanksgiving, in November. ahahah. I'm really ahead on this thing..

Austin's B-Day.  James Bond. Lots of fun!!

Cooper LOVES THE SLIDE!

ANNUAL TURKEY BOWL.

Scrapbooking, etc.

Not that I really need to be writing a post about this..but I am actually really excited.  I have always been kind-of against scrapbooking..Way too overwhelming, and I just don't have talent, patience, money, etc for something for someone so not crafty like me.  So, Austin finally talked me into doing Cooper a scrapbook digitally instead of the normal way.  His mom has made like 15 scrapbooks EACH for all of her 6 kids, so he was really pushing for it.  Very grudgingly I began, and quite surprisingly I have really enjoyed it.  It has been lots of fun, a little overwhelming, but not near as much as I thought, and I counted and have over 100 pages now.  I know that is tons and tons of pictures, but I love to look back and I really don't regret having them...It's been a wonderful way to journal too.  It's easy to write out a paragraph digitally than to hand-write it.  So once this year is over I get to print it out.  It's not just for Cooper either, it's a family one...I'm not THAT ambitious to do lots for each child...but happy I did it.  Don't really know why I wanted to write about that, maybe because it's something I really really didn't want to do, but once I tried it I'm really happy for the effort that I've put into it...even if I am vain and love to look at pictures of ourselves...that's probably it...Oh well.  I'm really excited to print it when I get all caught up soon.

Anyway, the end.  Do any of you print off your blog, or do scrapbooking/digital scrapbooking?

Love, Krissi

First Haircut

Hey There.

It was time to Chop off Coopers Wings so his hair could grow out evenly.  Here he is.  Austin's mom is pro, been cutting hair for years (which is great because now marrying into this family I get my hair done for free, because she is THAT awesome).  Cooper looks way too grown-up, and I can't wait for his curls to grow back, but it was very much needed.  Merry Christmas ya'll!

Leaves

I went a little overboard on leaf pictures this year, but I didn’t realize how much fun leaves were till I had a little kid to play in them. Growing up we never had trees that allowed us to have huge leaf piles, so now that our house, and grandma’s house has them I let Cooper play in them as much as possible. It brings out my inner child :) He seems to like it too. Here are a few pics we took on his 1st Birthday.

May the Force Be With You

So, for Halloween, we'd been planning for so long in advance to be the Star Wars crew, and even though Cooper looked like a green headed sheep instead of Yoda, it was lots of fun!! We went to a really fun Halloween party that Vanessa Stubbs planned, and I will post a picture of Laurisa in her totally cool Astronaut suit too, :) :) Then on actual Halloween, we went to Grandma and Grandpa's house and ate delicious butternut soup that grandma made, and like 10 breadsticks (yes, 10 breadsticks, no wonder I can't lose this tire around my waist), and played Halloween Scattergories. It was a fun fun holiday!!

May the Force Be With You All

Laurisa's Amazing Astronaut suit at the party.

Other pics will come soon, can't find my camera that has my cute nephews as super heroes. Bye now!

Coop's Birthday Cake Video

Here's a short little video of Cooper eating, well not really eating, but playing in his birthday cake.  Sure love this little guy.