Feelings, nothing more than feelings.

So, I should probably just write this in a normal journal instead of on a blog, but oh well.  I don't know what my deal is today, but seriously....soooooo emotional.  I feel like my baby blues are just surfacing or something.  Truthfully I haven't slept in a really long time, and that makes for a crazy Krissi, seriously, so my emotions are just everywhere right now.  I can't believe how crazy I feel.  My sisters and I just got back from the Hunger Games, and that show was PERFECT.  How could they have created or made it any better?  It was sooooo like the book.  I am so mad that it ends the way it does because Hunger Games was just an amazingly written book.  It's like Catiness is my friend! :)  Now I've been getting all emotional about Cooper lately too.  I sit and watch him sleep and just want to cry because I think he's so innocent and so precious.  I just love this little guy so much.  Today has just been hard. I feel like everything is such a big deal, like the fact that having a messy kitchen or house makes me feel so bad.  Or that I haven't booked a wedding video in forever long, and I'm just kinda feeling down.  I knew before I had Cooper I would be one of those they always talk about in conference where feelings of inadequacy get you down, but I didn't think they would come this early. I thought it would be once Cooper got all defiant, but it's like he's just hangin out and havin fun, and I still totally feel that way. It's probably facebook and pinterest that do it to me.....oh wait, and not sleeping.  I should be sleeping now, but I'm feeding Cooper his "dream feed" to try to make him sleep longer, but don't worry, he'll be up in three hours anyway, and four hours, and five hours, and six hours.  He is however taking great naps.  I can put him down before he's asleep and he'll just fall right to sleep.  That's a big improvement from the beginning when he would stay awake for six hours at a time and refuse to sleep.  Anyway.  Overall this is just a totally selfish feeling because I'm letting all my silly little troubles blind me from all the goodness and I really do feel tender little mercies.  Like yesterday when Paige randomly called and we started talking about nursing and she told me not to feel guilty for not producing enough milk for Cooper, and using formula is OK to supplement. Or when today Aza entertained Cooper for me for an hour and I could here him giggling in the other room so I could get an hours of work in.  Or when Nicole messaged me an encouraging message about the whole wedding video thing.  See there's good things going on all around.  I just feel poopy and need to snap out of it.  Anyway, that's enough complaining for one night.  Sometimes it feels good to get things out, other times it just makes those things feel even more dramatic, which probably a little bit of both took place here.  Maybe I just need some sleep.  Either way, life is good I know that, can't wait till this feeling of overemotionalness passes and I can get on with thinking about someone else than myself.  The End.

Mom's B-Day

Here I post about mom's b-day party.  Courtney, Kinsie and I surprised mom with a pampering session.  She said she loved it over and over, so we came to the conclusion that....she loved it. :)  It was awesome to spend time with me seesters, I just love them, and it was great to do this for mom.  I also edited the pics a little bit to hide how tired we all looked too.  It was fun. Happy Birthday mom!